12 2 / 2020

exhaustedneedsleep-deactivated2:

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Day 1: What kind of symptoms do you experience?

Oh jesus.

• Flashbacks. I have them so often, it’s ridiculous. It’s not always completely subversive, but I can still have most tactile like taste, hear, smell, sometimes movements.

• Emotional flashbacks. I hate these so much!! You don’t know what triggers it, so I can get these random ass emotions and not understand.

• If either flashback is too much I dissociate. Not like DID. Just the floaty, numb feelings where things are grey and staticy and I’m watching myself do things like.. a first person game (think: Skyrim) Occasionally I’ll hallucinate and end up going into a flashback or just seeing my abusers.

• Age regression. Fuck this. How do I explain that to people?! (I like the app tbh)

• The amount of anxiety I have is ridiculous. Depression too.

• Personality disorders. Not DID, though I was originally diagnosed with that till it was changed to BPD by another doctor.

• I ended up with fibromyalgia. Not only am I in mental and emotional pain, but now physical. That’s not fair, honestly.

• Self harm and suicidal thoughts. Eating disorder. I almost succeeded in killing myself once. Ended up in a coma. Thankfully I survived, I guess. The ED is kinda just there.. making me hate myself more.

• Can’t hold a job of go to college due to persistently trying to off myself. On disability for ~5 years now.

• Controversial opinion(?) I’m asexual due to it. Have had sex. Hated it or felt nothing. Or it sends me into a flashback. Which sometimes leads to age regression. That’s awkward for everyone.

• Touch repulsed/starved. Depends on the day. I don’t remember the last time I let someone touch a part of my skin.

I’m probably forgetting something but I’m exhausted from today.

@ptsdconfessions

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12 2 / 2020

kindnotestoself:

[bad days and relapses]
[don’t erase your progress]

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07 2 / 2020

thedivinesenseofhumor:

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🤦🏻‍♀️

07 2 / 2020

resiliencewithin:
“ cwote:
“Make yourself a priority.”
Do it! ”

resiliencewithin:

cwote:

Make yourself a priority.

Do it!

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07 2 / 2020

drachenengel:

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If you reopen doors to toxic people you are delaying your recovery process…

07 2 / 2020

07 2 / 2020

07 2 / 2020

catsglade:

Steps to Fighting Fairly with your Partner

Choose your battles. You don’t need to address every single little problem. Some things can just be minor annoyances that you let go. Dealing with conflict takes energy and might be taxing on you, so don’t waste that energy over little things that don’t matter. 

Stick to the subject. Don’t bring up other random things or complaints about other things. Focus on one problem at a time and be thoughtful about it. make sure you both know what’s being discussed. 

Don’t limit potential. Past behavior does not inherently define future behaviors. don’t label your partner with things such as “you won’t” or “you can’t.” The point of conflict resolution is to make a change, so it’ll only make things worse if you believe nothing will when you bring it up. 

Don’t use the silent treatment. Ignoring someone will not make things better. All it will do is frustrate your partner and it is a manipulation tactic. This behavior can even be considered abusive in some cases. It’s a pointless punishment and will achieve nothing (except making your partner feel less safe in the relationship). 

Attack the problem, not the person. Focus on “I feel”, “I think”, “I see” statements. Don’t call names, don’t label, don’t attack your partner. Again, that’s just going to make things worse and solve nothing. And of course, don’t yell.

Focus on objective fact. Don’t say “you never” and don’t say “you always.” Don’t exaggerate things or assume you know everything from your partner’s perspective. Give specific, concrete examples of behavior.  

Offer solutions along with criticisms. Point your partner in the direction you want them to go rather than just assuming they can read your mind and will do what you need without you telling them. Don’t just tell them what they’ve done wrong: express your expectations. 

Accept that you could be wrong. You cannot possibly know everything and it’s possible that your partner might not be in the wrong. Your perceptions do not inherently reflect reality. Be okay with apologizing and owning up to your own mistakes. 

When the fight is over, let it be over. you don’t need to have the last word. All that matters is that the issue is resolved. If the issue is not resolved after you’ve let things rest for a while, assert your needs later on.

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07 2 / 2020

07 2 / 2020

"That risk you’re afraid to take could change your life."

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Some people reprogram the tension of their fear into curiousity and/ or excitement. if you can get over needing to make perfect choices, you can do that too!

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